Are We Not Infinite?

May 6 2024

I am a sea

I am depths unknown

I am unknowable

Unquantifiable

Inconceivable

I am a contradiction

Equal parts

Everything and nothing

I am outer space

I am the cosmos

There is eternity in these bones

I am internal foreverness

The deeper I feel

The deeper these feelings expand internally

Like roots of a tree

The size of galaxies

Interdimensional

I am not the only one

You have this too

You can find it

I can show you

Because I am a good teacher

I have touched truth

I know her name

There are others 

Who have gone before us

We can show you the way

To find the eternity within

To learn to see in lightless spaces

We can learn to be soft

It is scary

Because these feelings are big

After all, we are eternity personified

Are we not

Let us dive into our own depths

With fear by our side

We will take fear’s hand

While we seek out our vulnerable places

Where it hurts the most

Where fear is most scared to go

Let us call out pain’s name 

In our lightless souls

Let us tread into unknown spaces

May we learn to sit in the cold deep

May we learn to be alone in it

May we learn that we are never alone

For we have been given feelings to keep us company

Sadness will walk with you 

Wherever you go

Sadness is the bravest of these

Internal souls

Anger will rise up

For anger is the great protector

Anger knows injustice well

But we need to ask Anger to trust us

That we are healing these parts

The wounds they gave us

Like wandering shamans

We visit each wound we have ignored

Gathering our emotions 

As we learn what it means

To seek out old wounds

As we learn to journey

The lonely road of healing

May we find solace in our own strength

For you are here

You are now

You have made it this far

You are a warrior

Your sword is made of compassion

Your shield of righteous anger

You have donned armor of truth

And you ride the horse named Love

May we fight for ourselves

May we give to ourselves

May we touch those lonely wounds

May we seek the deepest of caves

So that it is no longer scary

May we all learn

To make a home in the loneliest parts of our souls